Unsentimental
by Elina


Iím tired of this shit. Every day itís the same. Joey I love you, Joey I want you, Joey please donít say anything to anyone.

What am I, stupid? I may not be the brains of the outfit, but it doesnít take a rocket scientist to figure out whatís going on.

So thatís it. No more handjobs in the bathroom. No more blowjobs in the janitorís closet. And definitely no more fucking me, trying to fuck him over.

Do you understand me? Stay out of my room late at night. When I kick them all out, you go too. Stay out of my space. I donít want any "accidental" brushes of your hand, anywhere on me.

This is over. Whatever it was, whatever we had, itís over. If you want to be with him, work it out and be with him. Iíll dance at your wedding. Just stay the fuck away from me.

~*~

You donít understand. Itís not like that at all. I love you, I really do. He means a lot to me, yeah, but whatever chance he and I might have had is over now. You know itís not like I can just stop seeing him every day. Itís hard to be around him. But I love you, I need you to be with me. Please be with me.

~*~

Why the fuck should I do that? So you can keep shushing me, so you can keep hiding me from everyone? No thanks. Call me when youíre not fucked up anymore.

~*~

Baby, Joey, I was just so scared of what they would think, what it would look like for me to be with you so soon after he and I broke up. I was afraid they wouldnít understand itís not just some rebound thing. I love you, I really do, and I didnít want to listen to them telling me how I was screwing up. You know how they are. Please come back to me.

~*~

Not a fucking chance. How stupid do you think I am? Did you think I would fall for that act? Look, if they think youíre doing some "rebound thing" with me, itís because you are. Weíre talking about Chris and Justin, here - I may not be smart, but they are. I think youíre really just worried about JC. You donít want him to know how you fucked around on him. Shit. You say you loved him so much, and look what you did to him - Reason #547 for me not to come back to you. Whatís to stop you from doing exactly the same thing to me? No way. Fuck off.

~*~

Fine. If you really feel that way, fine, I guess.

~*~

Yep. See you around.



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