Tangible Schizophrenia


Dear John V: Fire Singers to Winter

Author: Guede Mazaka
Rating: PG
Pairing: Gen. Hartigan and Nancy.
Feedback: Good lines, bad ones, and why you liked/disliked them.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Notes: Title and quote from here.
Summary: Time flies and creeps.


ďWrite your wishes
on the door
and come in.Ē
--Corn Hut Talk, Carl Sandburg

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Dear Hartigan,

Today we had to write an essay on, if a genie gave us three wishes and they could be anything, what would they be. I wanted to say that first of all, I would set you free. But then I would have had to explain you to the teacher, and she already hates me because I can spell better than she can and Iíve corrected her a couple times. I didnít mean to insult her or anything. All I was trying to do was to make sure she did it right, but people laughed and she went red as a fire hydrant, and I could tell she wanted to scream her head off at me. Ever since, sheís been looking for ways to get me.

Donít worry; I can handle myself. And itís only another few months before school ends.

Wow. I write that down and I still canít believe it. Iíve almost finished my first year of high school, and Iíve survived. Itís amazing. When I think about what I was like back in September, all nervous and terrified and worried that I was going to get locked in lockersÖwell, Iím still nervous and terrified, but I havenít gotten locked into a locker. I think Iím doing okay. I lost touch with some of my old friends because weíre in all different classes, but Iíve made some new ones and I stay out of the way of the really mean kids. Some of the girls here take themselves way too seriously. And the guysÖtheyíre all jerks anyway. Even if one of them were to finally ask me out to the last dance of the year, I think Iíd say no. I havenít met one yet thatís really nice. Makes me miss my middle-school boyfriend even more, even though I heard from someone that now heís not so fun to be around.

Iím in the middle of reading Jane Austenís Pride and Prejudice, which is about a group of sisters whose parents are trying to marry them off, and who donít all like that. The parts where she describes the countryside and things like that are boring, but I love the conversations. Her characters are almost too witty. When Iím done, Iíll write you more about it. Right now Iím a little confused about some of the plot and whatís going onÖitís cool how she doesnít say everything straight out, but it also makes it hard to tell what is supposed to be happening. Itís like the characters are winking at each other and laughing behind their hands at how confused the reader is.

I have to study for my math final, so Iíve got to stop now. I hope youíre doing all right.